Blog Daydreaming

Truth be told...I haven't the slightest clue what I'm doing right now.

What I do know is that I've been daydreaming, yes, literally daydreaming about writing a blog titled Truth Be Told for, oh let's say, a couple years now.

Here is my original reasoning. Throughout my day something at least one thing, will really stand out to me. Whether it's how absolutely precious my five year old can be, or how absolutely horrendous my fourteen year old can behave, or maybe it's something like what I was thinking when I saw the homeless man walking down the street the other day, there is ALWAYS at least one thing that will really strike me to the core each day.

Now not only do these moments make me pause and actually stop and think. They also seem to change me a little. Like there is this innate wiring in all of us that we have to remain the same, that we can't ever change our minds or heaven forbid, who we are for that matter!

So, that's where the title Truth Be Told comes in. I'm often catching myself thinking I think one way, only to realize, I don't actually think that way at all. Or maybe not that dramatic, maybe I'm more on the fence or just maybe, I'm entirely indifferent about the whole thing, whatever that thing may be.

Well, that brought me to the first reasoning behind this blog. Now here's the second. I've been reading a book by Rachel Hollis called Girl Wash Your Face and in that book she instructs you to write down your dreams. Yep, now you follow me. I've been challenged to get off my booty (well not literally because I pretty much have to be on my booty while I type this) and finally start the blog I've been doing what?, ah yes, daydreaming about.

Here it is in all it's glory. The very first blog post of Truth Be Told. I feel satisfied and a little....annoyed. Annoyed that I can't really delight in this moment because, truth be told, I have a headache, the girls are being loud and I feel like I could fall asleep at any minute. Yep, this is what this is all about. Being honest no matter what. Allowing myself to feel what I feel, analyze it for what it is and do what I can to make it better. Sending the girls out to play in the pool, popping some acetaminophen and then going outside to recharge in the sunlight, that's what I can do. Now I'm off to do just that and now I CAN delight in the thrill of knowing that I've finally started in on my daydream of creating this blog. Crap, do I click publish, eek!!!